"Ngesinye isikhathi, omunye wabajwayelene naye wafika ebudlelwaneni obungaqondakali. Yebo, okungukuthi, uyazi, njengoba kwenzeka: futhi konke kubonakala kumnandi impela, kepha nokho uhlobo oluthile lwemfucumfucu. Kubukeka sengathi umfana muhle, futhi wathandana ngokuthuthumela emadolweni nasezinye izindawo, kepha kukhona okungahambi kahle ngaso sonke isikhathi. Njengoba kwenzeka ngokuzayo, ngaphansi kwento engaqondakali 'bekufihliwe ukungaqondi kwalo okuphelele kwefomethi yokuxhumana kwabo nokuntuleka kwempendulo ye-SANE kusuka kwi-lyrical hero ebuqhawe. Wayesekuningi okungabanjwanga kwabantu bamiswe.
Izikhathi ezimbalwa le ntombazane yazama ukuthola ukuthi kwenzekani phakathi kwazo, kodwa kwanhlanga zimuka nomoya. Ukuthi wayiqonda kahle imibuzo, ngabe ayinazimpendulo. Yiba yilokho njengoba kungenzeka, lobu budlelwano babudingekayo kuye ngesizathu esithile. Ngijwayele ukukubona lokho, ukungaqondi ngokwengeziwe nokungaqondakali, kulapho sikubeka khona ngezandla nangemilenze. Kuyadingeka ukuveza ukushesha, ngokuqinisekile lapho, ngemuva kwesendlalelo sokukhukhumeza, ukuphonsa okubuhlungu kanye nokuhlala unomphela "kukhona okushodayo" kuyingcebo yangempela.
Ngokuvamile, akunakushiya, ukuhlala nsuku zonke bekunzima futhi kube nzima, futhi intombi yami ehlakaniphile yathola indlela yokuphuma. Waqala ukuguquka, futhi ngomsebenzi omangalisayo. Owayengukuqala, abangane, abanye abafana bamabha bahamba bayohamba. Kwafika lapho ekwazile ukubeka umthandi imizuzu emi-5 ngaphambi kokufika kweqhawe lakhe.
Ubulungiswa kufanelekile ukuqaphela ukuthi akazange athole injabulo nenjabulo kulokho okwenzeka. I-tangle yokuphikisana yaqala kakhulu, ngentukuthelo nokuziphilisa, namahloni, nokusola kwabo, izaba masinyane, imizwa yabanye abantu yayixubekile. Isimo saso sifana nesihogo esingokomzwelo nama-boiling boiling kanye nama-monans ama-infes.
Kuliqiniso, sikhulume kaninginingi ukuthi kungani akwenzayo. Futhi le ngxoxo ngayinye yasifaka esiphethweni sokuthi konke okwenzekayo ukuphela kwendlela yokungathululi kuye, othandekayo, ufulathela ngenxa yokungaqiniseki, ufulawa ngenxa yokungatholakali kwakhe, futhi, kunjalo , izakhiwo ezikhula ngokushesha ezivela ochungechungeni oluthi "Akunjalo, ngoba sonke sinzima."
Ukufika kwale vakhanalia ejwayelekile futhi uhambe ibanga lommese, wazama ukungamhlali ekugcineni ebudlelwaneni naye nothando lwakhe, okubonakala sengathi kudingeka kunoma ngubani kule ndaba. Zonke lezi zinoveli ezi-mini kanye nobudlelwano obufanayo bamvumela ukuthi agweme ukubukeka okubukwayo kwempilo kanye nombuzo waphakade ", wasiza ngandlela thile ngezikhathi zokucabanga" Ngijwayele ukudinga? ". Yebo, kanye nengozi yokumhlanza ngemizamo yakhe yokuhlanganisa yancishiswa.
Konke kwaphela akumnandi kakhulu, ngoba kungekudala, imfihlo iba sobala, futhi wangaphakathi, uPrash wangaphakathi, wagcina wafika ekukhuphukeni. Konke kuphela kwenzeka njengoba ayecabanga. Kepha ukunyathela amasonto ambalwa edlule, kwafika esiphethweni sokuthi indawo engcono kakhulu embi kune-grinder yenyama engenamkhawulo. Futhi-ke, ekugcineni, bathola ukuthi konke lokhu empeleni.
Intombi yami yangena ogibeni lokudukiswa okuyingozi, okuyinto, elula kakhulu, futhi kuzoba ngeshwa, okungcono ebudlelwaneni futhi noma ngabe ngokwezigaba akulungile - yizinkinga zakhe, ukuthumela omunye umuntu - FU, Futhi abantu abafanele abakakho. Futhi wayefuna ngempela ukuba ephelele. Okwani? Ukuze ungashiyi, akazange anqabe, awazange alimaze.
Wayesaba ukubuza umbuzo oqondile emikhakheni yesisu, ngoba wayengakulungele ukuzwa impendulo engemihle. Wayesho ukuthi futhi bekungafanele akhathazeke ukuthi wake waba. Wayesaba kakhulu ukukhombisa i-romeo yakhe ukuthi wayini ngempela nokuthi uyakudinga. Kwabonakala kuye ukuthi wabuza kakhulu. Ngemuva kwakho konke, siyamemeza kuzo zonke izinhlangothi ngesidingo sokwaneliseka okwamanje. Futhi kusukela ebuntwaneni baphefumulela ukuthi bekungenakwenzeka ukucela, amantombazane amahle awakwenzi lokho. I-Paradox, kepha, izama ukuba ngomuntu ophelele, siyingxabano ukuze sinomona ngokuziphatha okungapheli kakhulu kokuziphatha.
Ingabe wayithanda le iqhawe lakhe eliphikisayo futhi eliyinkimbinkimbi? Othandekayo. Njengoba, ngendlela, khona-ke kwavela, futhi wamthanda. Kalula nje, lezi zimoni ezimbili ezigcwele, izifanekiso kanye nokulimala komuntu okushiye ubudlelwano bawo hhayi ithuba elincane kakhulu, ukuphikile ngokuphelele ubuhlakani babo nobuqotho. Oyedwa wathula futhi wasindiswa njengoba kungenzeka, owesibili wayehlala enobuhle.
Indaba engikutshele yona - ngentombazane. Kepha amadoda ahlala eba izinhlamvu eziphambili zale nkomba edabukisayo. Ngakho-ke, lapho usuthole izindaba ngokuvukela umbuso, ngeke kube ngcono ukucabanga: Ngabe ngiyazi konke ukuthi umuntu useduze kangangokuba wabuhlungu nokuthi uyakudinga yini? Njengombukiso wokuzijwayeza, kungavela izinto eziningi ezithokozisayo.
Konke kuhle. Futhi ube ngokwakho. "
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