Kanye, ngoJuni ngo-2015, umyeni wam wathi ufuna sizale omnye umntwana. Iinyembezi zolonwabo zaphuma ezihlathini zam. Oonyana bethu bobabini bafika kuthi "thina", xa zikhetha. Kwaye apha - ithuba lokufumana amanye amava kwaye lizalise iphupha lakho-ukuba ngumama komnye umntwana.
Bendikuvuyela ukuyiva. Yayiyimvakalelo yabasetyhini kakhulu yolonwabo, intembelo kwindoda yakhe, ekubeni ekwazisa imbopheleleko yesigqibo kunye nomnqweno wakhe.
Kwaye bendifuna kakhulu ukumema usapho lwethu lomnye umntwana. Yonke "imigaqo". Ngokusekwe kwinani elikhulu lolwazi endilifumene kwiminyaka edlulileyo, ngelixa ndifunda i-Psychology, ubumoya, bendizilindela, indawo endiya kuyo yonke imalunga nokukhulelwa, malunga nokukhulelwa, ukudlula kuyo yonke i amanqanaba okuzalwa, malunga nolwalo lwalo.
Yayiyimeko entsha kakhulu, ngaphambi kokuba ndingaqhelanga. Imeko yohlobo oluthile lokuthembela ngokunzulu kwinto eyenzekayo. Zithembe iindlela endiya kuzo. Yayiyimeko enkulu - ukuthembela kwento yokuba ndinawo ubuncwane ngokwaneleyo kum, kwaye umhlaba undikhathalele. Kubonakala kum ukuba okokuqala ebomini bam ndagqiba kwelokuba ndikwimeko evunyiweyo. Xa kwakungekho mathandabuzo ukuba ndikhona. Akukho nqanaba.
Ke ebomini bam, unyana ka-Ender wavela kwaye waqala ukukhula ngaphakathi kum.
Wayendiphembelela ngokumangalisayo. Ndayeka ukutya inyama, kuba yayiyekile ukuba ibe kukutya kum. Ndala iilekese ezimazini - bayeka ukundikhulisa. Ndiqalise ukumamela umculo weClassical engazange ndiyithande ngaphambili. Sahlekisa ukuba umphefumlo we-Egorkin - ovela kwiTibet Flew, ukuzola olunjalo ukusuka ngaphakathi. Kwaye ke wandiphengela mna kwaye, kunjalo, kuyo yonke intsapho yethu.
Sonke silinde ukuba lo mntwana.
Ngesinye isizathu sokuba ndingatsaleli imifanekiso emva kokuzalwa kwakhe.
Andiyicindi indlela alala ngayo, kwaye sidlala nabantwana. Sihamba njani kunye. Ungachitha njani ixesha. Yandinika kancinci. Kwaye ndiyazola ngento yokuba yonke into iza kuba ngexesha elifanelekileyo.
"Sonke silinde lo mntwana. Ngesinye nje ngenxa yesizathu sokuba ndingatsaleli imifanekiso emva kokuzalwa kwakhe. "
Ifoto: Indawo yogcino lomntu uAlexandra Fechina
Bonke ukukhulelwa bendiziva ndilungile.
Kwaye kude kube kuphela kwelokugqibela loo mzuzu wokuthenga izinto zomntwana. Khange ndifune ukuzithenga kakhulu. Kwaye kuphela intloko ethethile - iyimfuneko, kwaye iya kuzalelwa kwaye ayinalo ixesha lokulungiselela.
Kwiiveki ezimbini ngaphambi kokuzalwa, ndaphuma ndaza ndathenga izilayidi ezimbalwa, ingubo, i-diapers. Intombazana yentombazana ikhuphe i-crib enematrasi kunye nesitulo esondlayo.
Kwaye ngoku usuku olulindelweyo lwaluza. Olu suku lwalungqubana ngokumangalisayo ngaloo mhla wokusweleka kukaSotomkhulu wam. Umakhulu yayikuphela komntu ngaphambi kokudibana nomyeni wakhe owayendithanda ngaphandle kwemeko. Ngenxa yento endiyiyo. Akukho mfuneko yokuba ndifunde kakuhle uthando lwakho, ziziphatha ngokuchanekileyo, landela imigaqo.
Utatomkhulu wasweleka ngokuthe ngqo kwiminyaka emi-5 ngaphambi kwaloo mini. Kude kube ngu-Epreli 5, 2016.
Xa amanzi efudukile, ndonwaba kakhulu ukuba unyana wethu uza kuzalwa ngala mhla. Usuku xa esinye isikhokelo sindenzele mna, liya kuza.
Bendingazi ukuba emva kweeyure ezine unyana onyana wam wayeza kufa ngokuzalwa komntwana kwi-hypoxia.
I-Ender ifile. Kanye ngaloo mhla nangolo xesha, xa umakhulu wam wasweleka kwiminyaka emi-5 eyadlulayo, utitshala wam othandekayo.
Sothuswe.
Mna nomyeni wam sasingakwazi ukulala ngeentsuku ezintathu. Emva koko waqala ukuza ubisi.
Umzimba wam wonke wacela umntwana. Izandla zazifuna ukuyigcina kwaye zibumbe, zifuya. Ndiluthando.
Lonke ilizwe lam laphela ngaloo mihla.
Ngaphambi koko, ndakholelwa ukuba ukuba uphila "," ukuze niphile ngengqibelelo, ukuba niyiqonde, nize niyandikhusela, nize niyiphumle, ilahleko, intlekisa. Ndikholelwe ukuba iingxaki kunye neengxaki ezibi ezeza kwabo bazizithulu. Kwabo bangayiqondi ngenye indlela. Ke ngoko, isibakala sokuba ndafunda kakhulu, sakhula, bendifuna, ndatshintsha, kwafuneka ndibe "kukugonya" kuyo yonke into "embi", eyenzekayo ebomini. Kwaye apha kwavela ukuba le nkqubo ayisebenzi. Ukuba akukho siqinisekiso. Kwaye akukho namnye owandinika wona, akayi kumnika. Ukuba andinamandla kwaye andigqibanga. Kwaye akukho kukhuselo koku.
Kwiveki kamva, samngcwaba unyana.
Ngengozi eyonwabileyo, nathi ukunxibelelana nathi kusuku lwesibini enye yeengcali ezimbalwa kwi-psychology ye-Psychology yelahleko.
Usincedile kakhulu. Impendulo yonke imibuzo, ixelele indlela yokwenza kwimicimbi esesikweni - ukuqala kwiSatifikethi sokufa kunye nokuphela emangcwabeni. Wayeneempendulo kuyo yonke imibuzo yethu, wabelana ngamava akhe ukuba ndixhamlwe mna nomyeni wam. Kuba imvakalelo yenze okwenzeka kuthi kuphela, kwaye akukacacanga ukuba enze ntoni, apho uza kujika khona. Imvakalelo ibonakala ngathi iyaphambana.
Kwinyanga ezayo, safunda kubantu abaninzi besisazi imbali yokuphulukana nabantwana: ukuzalwa, ngokuzalwa komntwana, engazalwanga (efile ngaphakathi kumama).
Kwavela ukuba eli bali lelo likwiintsapho ezininzi, kuphela kuluntu lwethu ayisiyonto yesiko sokuthetha ngayo, kwaye yoyikisa.
Nanku abazali kwaye bathule. Kunye nexhala lodwa, njengoko zinako. Inkxaso kwaba bantu ngelo xesha yayixabiseke kakhulu kwaye yindlela yethu. Ukuthatha inxaxheba nganye, yonke intetho, uvelwano nganye iphendule ngombulelo omkhulu entliziyweni.
Umzimba wam awuzange ubuyiselwe kakubi emva kokuzalwa kwe-Ender. Ndilila kakhulu. Kwaye akazange enze nto ngaphandle kwalonto. Andinanto okanye imikhosi. Konke endikwenzileyo ngaphambili, ngoku kwabonakala kungenanjongo kum. Kwaye ngaxa lithile ndaqonda ukuba kufuneka ndibuyiselwe ngumbuyiselo womzimba. Ngapha koko, ndifuna omnye umntwana. Kwaye ndinomyeni nabantwana, ecaleni koko ndifuna ukuba sempilweni. Ke ndaye ndagqiba kwelokuba ndiye kuhambo lweveki lokuhlala nokuphiliswa kunye nokuziqhelanisa ngokomoya - Qigong.
Emva kokuphulukana noNyana uAlexander wagqiba kwelokuba aye kuhambo lweveki veki ngokuhlala ephilile kunye nokuziqhelanisa ngokomoya - Qigong
Ifoto: Indawo yogcino lomntu uAlexandra Fechina
Emva kolo hambo, ndaya e-Ultrasound, kwaye ogqirha babengenakukholwa ukuba olo tshintsho lunokwenzeka ngcono. Umzimba wam ubuyiselwe phambi kwamehlo am.
Owona mgibe mkhulu kum yayikukuziva unetyala. Njengoko ndafunda kamva, imvakalelo yokuziva unetyala ngumgibe wabazali abaninzi, ongenanto yahamba gwenxa, kwaye umntwana akazange akhe. Ndifumene amanqaku amaninzi endiye ndabinayo: ukuba wawuthathile esinye isigqibo, ndikhethe omnye ugqirha, andizange ndigxeke nomama, ndaya kuzala abanye abantu, ke yonke into inokuthi yahluke , unyana wam uya kuphila.
Ukuziva unetyala ngokungakhathali njengengqolowa. Kwaye ukuba uyamvuma ukuba asasazeke kwaye akhule, kwaye aphile ngaphakathi ngokwakho, emva koko uya kubuna.
Hayi, endingadli njengamava okuphulukana nonyana, kungekuko oko waphila ngaphakathi kwiinyanga ezisithoba ukuze ndisweleke, ndagqiba.
Kwaye banomdla kwiingcali, izihlobo, abantu abaziqhelanisa, bacela ukuba bandincede - ndabona ukuba ndifuna ukuphila. Makazi ke angayazi indlela yokwenza.
Ngokuthe ngcembe, utshintsho olumangalisayo lwenzekile ngaphakathi kum,
Umzimba waqala ukufumana imvakalelo engaziwayo yangaphambili - isisele ngasinye somzimba bendiziva ndiyichukumisa. Ekuseni, xa ndavula amehlo am, iinyembezi ezihamba iinyembezi ebuhleni ndabona, ndikhangela esibhakabhakeni nelanga. Ndiphakamise isandla sam ndaza ndazibuza ngalo mmangaliso ukuba ndimshukumisela. Ndijonge esipilini kwaye ndabona ibhinqa elihle (ngaphambili andizange ndiziqwalasele umntu omhle).
Ndiphume esitratweni, kwaye wonke umntu ogama lingaphantsi, komnye umntu kukho okungaphezulu, emntwini-ngaphantsi. Kwaye kwanabo bantu - kwimarike okanye abaqhubi beeteksi-yeyiphi endingakhange ndihlale ngaphambili kwaye ndicinge ngezantsi kwesikhundla sam, ngokugqibeleleyo, aba bantu bafumene ivolumu engabonakaliyo. Ndakhangela emehlweni am ndabona infinity nothando. Ukuguqukela kumntu ngamnye ebomini bakhe basekhaya, ndabona ndajonga ubuhle bangaphakathi, umthombo, uthando olwahlukana naye. Ndayeka ukuvavanya abantu kwinkangeleko yabo - umzimba, iimpahla, izizwe, iinwele, zigcinwe kakuhle. Ngokumangalisayo ngokuphendula, ndafumana uthando, ukhathalelo, ingqalelo. Hayi igama elinye elikrwada, isenzo, ukubonakaliswa.
Ngokungathi lonke lizwe luthando. Uthando lwenziwe ngam. Kwaye uthando lwahamba kum ndisebenzisa abanye abantu.
Ngokuhambelana nenguqu yam yangaphakathi, bendiqonda ukuba yayingasafuneki ukuba ijongane nobomi ebomini. Andifuni enye into. Kwaqala ukubonakala kungenantsingiselo, emxinwa.
"Ndiziva ndonwabile. Ndihlala yonke imihla njengoko ndingathanda ukuphila, "uAlexander uyavuma
Ifoto: Indawo yogcino lomntu uAlexandra Fechina
Ukukhetha kokusuka esihogweni, apho ndifumene khona, kwaye ndibona ukuba akukho lwazi lunganelanga malunga nendlela yokuzinceda ngayo emva kokuba ndilahlekelwe ngabazali, kule ntlungu itshabalalisa yonke into. Kwaye ngaphakathi ndova amandla okwenza oku.
Ndaye ndafumanisa ukuba ukuba ndiziva ndingamandla okunceda abanye abantu emhlabeni abancinci, ndiza kuyenza.
Kuba imida ngoku ilahlekile. Imida ngokwemigaqo yezithintelo. Ndiqale ukubona umhlaba phantsi kwekona, apho yonke into onokuyenza. Apho ndingacela uncedo kuye nawuphi na umntu. Apho uThixo, indalo iphela indincedile, kwaye nam ndichitha uthando lwabantu.
Apho wonke umntu - ochitha uthando ngokwakhe. Apho kungekho manqanaba, apho kukho unxibelelwano kwinqanaba lokuhlamba.
Kwezo ntsapho ndilahlekelwe ngunyana wam, ndingathanda ukuzala entsha - isimahla, ehlaziyiweyo, kwaye inothando kwaye ixabiswe yonke into ebizayo.
Kwakukho ingxowa-mali yokuthambisa yokunceda abazali kwimeko enzima yobomi "ukukhanya kwezandla". Ukuza kuthi ga ngoku, le kuphela kombutho obonelela ngolwazi lwasimahla kunye nenkxaso yengqondo kubazali nakumalungu osapho emva kokuphulukana ne-penanatal.
Ndiziva ndonwabile. Ndihlala yonke imihla njengoko ndingathanda ukuphila. Ndiyeke ukuhlehlisa amaxesha, iintlanganiso, ndiphumeze iminqweno yam. Kum, kwakuxabisa kakhulu ukunxibelelana nabantu endibathandayo, kunye nabo bandithandayo, nabo bafuna uncedo lwam.