She has a very difficult face for the grima. And the casual nature of the soul, which does not want makeup. Honest, open, extremely frank - in silence. Post on the Internet, which gathered tens of thousands of Likes. Confession of a woman, in the torment that gave birth to her first child, daughter, her feelings that goosebumps were flowed into other people's bodies. History of love, hatred, growing, losses ... All these stories had the author - Julia Aug, actress.
- Julia, you are from the rare type of actresses that with age only grow in price. In the forty years, you played Empress Elizaven in the TV series "Great".
- No, not in forty, much later. Forty-four, it was November 2014. Forty were "oatmeal."
"Oatmeal" caused a lot of disputes and produced a furor at the Venetian film festival.
- I do not read this. I do not read criticism at all. What for? I do not care.
- So it does not happen to anyway. You constantly write on the Internet. For whom?
- It is easier for me to write on the network. From the desire to say something and sometimes inability to do it. I recently drove with the producer, and I was just recognized that for me sometimes a big test is any phone call and even a taxi call when I just need to dial the number and explain to the driver where it is necessary to come. Maybe this is from the fact that I was tired, I am very tired. I'm not tired now, at least a few years ago. Speak, meet, explain ... Write it easier for me.
- Recently you returned from the Crimea, where they received a special prize of the jury of the Eurasian Bridge festival for the film "Touch Wind". You managed to get to the sea - I remember, on my page you dreamed about it?
- It turns out that I lived in a very expensive hotel, and I didn't have to go anywhere - just go down on the elevator. The sea was warm, not colder than our Baltic in July.
- You grew up in Estonia, in Narva. Also not far from the coast - only shy, windy.
- Probably, from the side of the Baltic nature looks fad, there are no bright colors, the Gloomy Sea, but I love it, and in order to hide from people, it's just an ideal place. In Estonia I was always good.
In the television film "The Great" Yulia played Empress Elizabeth Petrovna and received the Thafi Prize
- In childhood, you probably lazy on the ruins of the mysterious Narva castle with the boys.
- ... And the parents constantly scared us by the fact that at one fine moment his arches would be collapsed and we will fall out of the earth. We were afraid, but still continued to walk there, climbed into underground moves. I grew up the kid, I was interested in the boys, I would give Him. In a neighboring Ivangorod, there is also its own old fortress. Then, at the end of the seventies, Russian Ivangorod and Estonian Narva were a single territory, we just ran across the bridge. No need to show passports, no bureaucracy, as now.
- Mystical vintage cities. And your face - in it, too, there is something intente, Florentine. No wonder your first role is the medieval princess Magda from a fantastic film in Kiru Bulychev "Correction of Correction".
- I was then seventeen ... but no, I do not like mystical stories. Yes, I do not believe in them. I was not going to actresses, I wanted to become an archaeologist and participated in almost real excavations in the same Narva castle. Very rejoiced when I found a rusty nail or an antique coin. I studied badly at school, although it was very prestigious, physico-mathematical. But there was not enough time for the lessons. Then I realized that I wanted to be an artist or a jeweler, my dad had a workshop, it was he who taught me to process amber. I do not know what all this led to, but in the ninth grade I had a novel. The boy was older for a year and did an acting. And I went with him to Peter, who knew and loved from childhood. I was born there, it is a native father's city, he lived there before the grandfather's link in the 37th year, he studied at an art school at the Academy of Arts. For him, Peter was filled with meaning, and he tried to convey it to me.
- The boy did?
- The boy did not do. And I fell in love with the atmosphere of the theater institute, in beautiful applicants who read poems played the guitar, in creative energy - such a dense, material that it could be argued with his hands ... and for the next year he returned.
- Was it easy to leave home?
- Yes, and I am even easily leaving. I change home, cities, countries ...
Princess Magda in "Correction" - one of the first roles
Frame from the film "Kidnapping Correction"
- After many years, as I understand it, you will change Peter to Moscow. You had eight main roles in the dus, and you threw them all.
- What all? Eight main roles are nothing at all. Life moves forward, only when you live. And you can play eight, ten, twelve main and understand that nothing happens.
- Is it because of the smell of dusty koles? It sometimes seems to me that the theater is a dead-end branch of art.
- Gogol Center, where we meet now, completely different. Do you feel the air here? Breathe freely? So it's not about this ... For years to twenty-five, I had a lot of work, I often starred, and the crisis nineties passed by. But then I went into the shadow. At this time, there was a serious illness, because of the drug intake, I became very corrected, the color of the hair changed.
- And then you started to crash omitted?
- I did not catch anything, I did not sit and did not wait for fame. I worked. The second director in the cinema, wrote scenarios, he herself shot. Including musical clips. And all this time, not even in the frame, I somehow attended the cinema.
- Did you choose films not for the mass viewer? The same "oatmeal", "intimate places", "Touch of the wind" ...
- Yes. Because sometimes the process of creativity plays a big role than the final result.
- You are satisfied, how does the acting career of his daughter begins?
- What does it mean - suits? I do not know anything about her career, about her studies.
Of all the genres of the actress prefers an intellectual art house. In the picture "Intimate Places"
Frame from the film "Intimate Places"
- But you sit down and talk with her as a mother with my daughter? You are close, about what you wrote more than once ...
- This is mainly happening using ESEMES. She sends me a message, I answer him.
"My girl, I keep your fingers, they all the time cold, a little blue holes of oval nails, and finger tips are ice. Kiss each. To warm up lips. You are my big, my little. You still climb in the mornings under the blanket and sleep there the last minutes, and even the last, and more. I hug you as the main jewel of my life. And then we are definitely late. And you have already forgotten and laugh with friends, and I am all the worlds for you invent you, in which you do not need to hurry, and fall under the blanket as much as you like, and most importantly - we are together. But this is not true, do not believe, we apart. You are ahead, in your flying, new, sparkling life ... And I am in my own. You visit me, and I will iron to iron you, where the angels have wings. Small such tubercles. After the wedding will pass. "
"You probably have already said so many times that your daughter is very similar to you." Especially the eyes.
- No that's not true. She has a completely different chin, nose. I'm not sure that we are generally similar. She is completely separate from me personality, separate and beautiful. From the twelve years, she had the right to solve certain issues to independently, and I did not make it do what she did not like.
- A child with a key on the neck - a frame from the Sweet Childhood.
- Not. I would not want this for her. The door is from the door - and there is a non-free. And independence is not in the key or in its absence. Polina and now is not completely independent. I remove her housing, financially providing. But at the same time it is free.
- And her choice go on your footsteps?
- I do not care. Why should it touch me hard? I just want her to be happy.
- In many of your posts, it is written about the longing of the house, which is not. How did it happen that the famous, relevant actress still comes in a removable apartment?
- In a removable house. Under Moscow. There is all someone else, temporary. But I can't earn myself on housing ... my daughter. I can not.
- Dogs - they are also with you.
- And dogs with me. All three. In a removable house, yes.
- For you, this is a sore topic, probably?
- Not. Not patient. I am a barbell horse that all seeks hard work. For a while I tried to change something, rushing, desperately tried to earn, asked even. Then I realized that nothing happens, it means I will live in a removable.
The story of the boy - the religious fanatics was embodied on the screen, and on the stage of the Gogol Center in the play "(m) student"
Frame from the film "Student"
- But sooner or later it can come about such a time when you just do not physically get so much as now ...
- Shot of dogs, shot herself. Not. I will find than make money. I will go to the province, I will put the performances, I'll try to write scripts again, seriously teach. I never give up. I am a fighter ...
- On one of the talk shows a few years ago, you said that work is most important for you, even families.
"Yes, and I do not regret what I said then."
- Last year your husband Andrei died suddenly. Not that family was higher than which you put work. I do not ask how you could accept the loss and not expressing sympathy - from a stranger it is not to the place and inappropriate.
"I'm not trying to accept."
- A few years ago, I was interviewed with the wife of Boguslavskaya, the widow of Andrei Voznesensky. She admitted that the first five days after the death of her husband took a recorder and stipped his longing and pain to him. Speaking with him, like alive ...
- I do not talk to Andrey. I told him all the time with his life, as I needed, we confessed each other in love in many ways a day. We practically did not swear with him all these years of our livelihood.
- So it does not happen.
- It happens. I was married twice, but at the same time I never wanted it. Did not dream of a prince, wedding, children. The first time it happened because it was necessary for my child to have dual citizenship. But eight years later, the day came when the first husband just told me: "I'm leaving." The second time I got married to get a all-Russian passport. I'm tired of executing work visas every year, to remain here on bird rights, I did not even have a residence permit. To naturalize, I had to either buy accommodation in Russia, or marry a citizen of the country.
- That is, it was originally marriage for the calculation?
- Not. By the time Andrei and I have already lived together for four years. Just at some point it became clear that to issue our relationship is the only possible way for my naturalization. We met in Moscow, at the wedding of my best friend, he called us both witnesses. It was 2000. We started talking immediately after the registry office, while while walking the young city. They spent them into the luxury of the hotel and tiled in the car. The next day - in the Tretyakovka. In the evening - at the station, when I was returning to Peter. We could not break away from each other, even when the train had already tried. That summer I came to Moscow for a couple of times. In August, Andrei came to me. Coffee drank, and I dragged him to the laugh to inspect the fortress of Oreshk-Shlisselburg. Returning, we did not have time for the wiring of the bridges, they marked a little bit between the foundry and Schmidt, they stopped on the embankment and fell right in the car.
Last year, Julia's husband, Andrei, tragically died
Photo: Personal archive Yulia Aug
- What happened then?
- In September I got sick. Once I do not have a Russian medical policy, it was counted, how much treatment costs - the astronomical amount turned out. The theater in which I worked, refused to help. I called Andrei on Friday, on Sunday he arrived, and all my stay in the hospital, including analyzes, was paid for them. Probably he saved my life. Because if my disease is not treated, they die from it. While I was in the hospital, Andrew came to me every weekend. And every weekend came to the hospital former husband, father Polina. Funny, but they never encountered. Curious nurses asked: "Who is it?" What I answered: "This is a former husband. And this is the future. "
- On your common photos I found on the Internet, Andrei looks at you.
- Yes ... it was. But even these photos were left left, there was some kind of failure, to keep them on our computer failed. Only on the social network, very small size ... The most intolerable in the whole situation is that, first of all, and Andrei and I were friends with lovers. We had something to think about, we wrote scenarios, created general worlds. And I understand perfectly well that, apparently, never will never be there anymore, because it is impossible to repeat such complete unity.
- It sounds probably trite, but the time really treats. And the same priests advise ...
- Listen, I am not a believer. I am materialist. He is now not bad and not good, it is simply no. There is no coordinate system in my coordinate system. And it means that neither questions nor answers or advice are needed. They are useless ... I think about Andrei. That is, I think a lot about, but every minute and every second also about Andrei. He is around and inside, part of me. I so want to hug him ... and I can not.
"Andrei died. He did not survive this situation with loss of business and at home. Yes, women are stronger and stronger. Yes, I have exactly so much work to continue to give debts. Everything. More lacking. Do I regret what I allowed him to lay our house for money to which he built his business? Not. Do not regret. Andrei had hope to take place. Andrei was the most talented man I met in my life. The most noble. And the most unclaimed ... "
- How was this year?
- Very fruitful. I starred. He released his performance, received different prizes. Write that the year was fruitful.
- The last film of Cyril Serebrennikova "Pupil", in which you played, this is a film about God, in which you do not believe, about choosing between good and ... not good.
"In my opinion, a film about how easy, hiding behind quotes from the Bible, manipulate the human consciousness, to create evil. This is an absolutely social and urgent topic. So behaves the main character, a young boy. As soon as Faith turns into a scrap, as it happens now, it deprives a person of freedom of choice, the very thing we spoke about. About this film and that it is necessary to include brains. But, unfortunately, adults educated people in our society have learned to set questions and respond to them. They like sheep go beyond who called them. Although the basis of such manipulations is not faith, but emptiness.
Polina went in the footsteps of the mother. In the photo with director Alexei Fedorchenko
Photo: Personal archive Yulia Aug
- Did you grow a rebar?
- Of course, thanks to dad. Include, to combat my behavior wanted Mom. And then at the very beginning. But I could not be crushed or make it come as I did not want. Somehow a brilliant thought came to me: In order not to be in the herd itself, you need to head it. I became an activist, chairman of the Council of the detachment, the squad - thereby the manipulator, and, you know, I even liked it. Apparently, I have had a powerful charisma since childhood. But at some point I was disappointed in this process.
- So, the Empress Elizabeth Petrovna, the wayward and contradictory, are you to some extent?
- Ya. But the saying of the saying about Elizabeth as a fun Empress, who sang and satisfied the balls, but did not be able to bring the order in the fatherland, as it seems to me, far from the truth. With all his shortcomings of Elizabeth, there was a devout, went to the long monasteries and constantly pushed her sins. For all: for the palace coup, for noting the child, for the fact that outside of marriage is inhibits with men, for the murder of people ... Orthodoxy is a very comfortable religion, sinned and repent. But with all this, Elizabeth managed to take responsibility for the young empire, increased the strength and boundaries of the state. And precisely because of its decree of the second main religion of Russia, Buddhism became.
- "Lord, I have ever seen this apple, sprayed from all sides. I already have the fingers hurt to be baptized, it is felting in the dirty corners to use. I'm so tired of believing, Lord ... I'm dying, and you sit there without a case. But do something, come ... "- you are reading the poetess of Katharina Sultanova poetess. Called "terrible".
- My mother heard and decided that I wrote it to him. Such an accurate hit. We recorded the first option here in Gogol Center. Removed in the lobby, against a completely white brick wall. I read, holding a book in my hands, because I still did not learn the words by heart. I generally teach poems. And any texts are difficult. There were a few doubles. I thought I could not endure, the atmosphere was so physically gone. Suddenly fell a mirror hanging on the wall. It did not break, just fell, no one touched him. I like it became a conductor heavy, sick energy. But I did not manage this process, he walked besides my desire. I spent the words of the heroine personally about my loss ...